you have allowed yourself to be brainwashed

"if I already know the truth then why would I continue to search for a lie?" Mark Hopkins my neighbor already knows he is Napoleon Bonaparte - why would he search for a lie?  The problem is you have no education and no capacity for taking responsibility or being honest with yourself, so you have allowed yourself to be brainwashed into an immoral and ignorant cult that for some demented reason feeds your ego and makes you feel important.